Skipped a month!

I've been crazy busy and just haven't taken the time to update the blog. My apologies.

So how's life been treating me?

Well, let's see...so far, I've ran a total of thirty six miles....330 more miles to go to complete one of my goals from my last post.

I went on three consecutive dates with the same guy (inadvertantly completing another goal on my list on that last post) and learned a hard lesson that has brought me to a new point in my life -growing in intimacy with my One True Love.

I also got myself a new truck!!! I love my baby...call her my little girl.

Let's see, what else...I've sold my ten seasons of FRIENDS, purged my library of smut books, have started studying intimacy and what it's about and how it relates to my life.

I've started seeking new authors to read -looks like I'm going to be picking up crime novels now instead of romance and smut...I look forward to the change, believe it or not.

I'm no longer doing on-line dating -in fact, I closed out my dating site accounts.

I've found a mentor in my pastor's wife as I figure out things about myself, God and relationships.

I am still running -in fact, I'm at two and a half miles now.

Oh, right. I started the year at 235 and am now at 229...six pounds down, fifty four more to go.

I'm taking my LSATs this Saturday morning and feel fine about that.

Well, gotta go sleep...leaving you with a picture of me and my baby!

Almost Over

The year is almost over!!!

So what big milestones have occurred in my life for the year 2011?

Let's see...

I lost forty pounds
I dropped three sizes
I fell hard for a guy and had my heart bruised
I learned even I can believe stupid lies
I stayed in the same job past the one year mark
I have written thousands of words for several stories
I have ran a total of thirty miles for the year
I have exercised for over 5,000+ minutes
I have lost a car
I have changed a tire
I have gone on my first date
I have acquired twenty pairs of shoes, among them four pairs of boots
I have ice skated successfully
I have driven a smoking car ready to set on fire
I have taught Sunday school without any major catastrophes
I have read thirty books
I have been on facebook almost every day

I can no longer think of anything more, my brain is rung dry...any additions?

For the New Year:

Forty pounds
Two-three sizes
366 miles (one per day)
LSATs
New running shoes
5K marathon or the Transmountain Marathon in October
Boxing classes
Pole Dancing
At least three dates (with the same guy or three different guys)
Red high Heels
Little Black Dress
NAVY

LSATs

Rescheduled them for February...it was a good move, if I must say so myself.

Went to a work party on Friday night and spend it dancing...it was great. I've slept all three nights through and being that tonight is my last night off, I'm slightly concerned about having to re-set my schedule once I head back to work Tuesday night.

I've gotten back to the gym since it's too cold to do INSANITY outside and my room is too small to do it in here. So back to the treadmill and other cardio machines.

My new goal, for whatever is left of the year, is to get down to 235LBS. If I can achieve that during the holiday season, then I am set for the new year.

I'm amazed that I actually accomplished one of my 2010 new year resolutions for this year that is almost to an end. I made the resolution to loose thirty pounds and I have...amazing to see that I have it in me to push myself, even after being fallow and lazy for two and a half weeks thanks to a throat/sinus/ear infection.

Well, nothing much new to update.

Next year, I plan to loose up to forty pounds, more if possible. I will also complete my first book, search for an agent and have it published.

I will be a bridesmaid at a wedding in Floresville in August and God willing, will be joining the NAVY in November/December 2012 or if still needing to loose more weight and get fit, joining in January/February 2013.

Not to mention the LSATs in February 11,2012.

I cannot believe that we are almost done with this year...next year, I will be 28, hitting my ten year high school graduation anniversary and will still be single...

I think I'm okay with that...I think.

No Updates All Of October?

Shame on me.

How has life been going for me you must be wondering, in case you're one of those diligent readers of my blog...I don't even know if there are any out there.

Well, updates for month of October...back to working out again, I'm on week two, day two of INSANITY. Have already lost the first two pounds and still have sixteen more to go before the year is over.

My goal is to be at 220LBS by midnight of Dec. 31st. This means two pounds a week, starting last week.

Work has been uneventful. Still working the occasional crazy hours, like today...I don't go in until two in the morning.

I've had to replace two tires on my car thanks to a nail in the street.

I've been teaching Sunday school but this past Sunday had to stay home due to a sour stomach...being that I didn't eat until the next morning, it took that long for it to abate.

Also, had to work Halloween night and since they allowed us to dress up...


As you can see, I dressed up as a pirate. I lasted nine hours of the twelve before I had to take the boots off and loosen the corset.

I definitely looked better this Halloween than the last time I dressed up, which was two years ago.

Wanna see?

So do you see the difference that I see?





Well, enough is enough. Time to eat and rest before heading to work at the indecent hour of two in the freaking morning.

Adios to everyone and Hasta Luego!

Another Two Miles

And this time, I did it in ten minutes less than last week.

Met with Maili this morning to go running...she's starting to take over the role of my personal trainer...unpaid but still effective.

Last week, I did two miles in fifty minutes...walking, running, jogging, sprinting, running backwards, running sideways, and lunges...all in fifty minutes.

Today, I ran a total of a mile, not consecutively but a combination of running, jogging and sprinting, not to mention running backwards and sideways...we finished our two miles in forty minutes.

Next week, I aim for thirty to thirty five minutes and plan on running more...

It's truly amazing to me that I can actually do this...a year ago, I would have been on the floor with an asthma attack after running 1/4 of a mile...now it only takes two minutes to be able to run again...

I have, indeed, improved.

Good thing there's still more need for improvement otherwise I wouldn't know what to do with myself!

The Bassinet List

Recently, due to SO MANY friends getting married and HAVING BABIES, not to mention working post-partum and being used (at my suggestion) as a newborn-sitter, I've been hearing my biological clock ticking away, getting louder and louder with every tick.

TICK-TOCK-TICK-TOCK...

The tick is usually followed by a how hard could it be to get pregnant?

Then the tock is followed by a not without being married.

The next tick is followed by a single parenthood isn't all that bad. My mom did it and look how good all her three kids tuned out (err...maybe rethink that one)

The next tock is followed by a don't want to be a single mother unless it is inevitable, such as divorce (no plans on that) or widowhood...or, God forbid, the nightmare of every woman actually happens to me.

Basically, I've changed the ring tone to my biological clock, which is driving me crazy. Now, it loudly chimes

PRO-CON-PRO-CON

So how to deal with this aching need to have a baby, to be a mother? I mean, here I am soon to be twenty eight and I'm nowhere near having a child...

I don't want to get so damn desperate I end doing something stupid...like artificial insemination (I would then join the ranks of virgin mothers) or even worst and life altering, a one night stand (which does not guarantee a pregnancy).

I know, thoughts are insane but that's me...so I think I may have found a solution to my damn chiming biological clock...

The Bassinet List...a list of things I want to do before motherhood forces me to throw them all out the window.

1) Get down to my healthy weight of 155 lbs by my thirtieth birthday (I have two years and seventy eight pounds to go)

2) Go skydiving (I give myself permission to back out once I am in the plane looking down)

3) Visit Italy (this I want to do alone or with someone special because children will just make it hard to enjoy it all)

4) Go to law school

5) Practice law

6) Buy and own my own car

7) A high paying job

8) Ride a motorcycle down Route 66

9) Visit New York

10) Complete and Publish a book

11) Wear an actual little black dress...with red high heels

12) Go on a few dates, break a couple of hearts

13) Meet the one guy that makes me want to strangle him and kiss him at the same time

14) Fall in love

15) Plan the wedding of my dreams (it involves the outdoors, TONS of flowers, and down home country food)

16) Enjoy my best friend/husband/lover for a while

17) Share the news and joy of a pregnancy

18) Work with my husband and daddy to be to set up a nursery

19) Survive the labor

And twenty would be the end of my bassinet list -hold my own baby in my arms as I look into it's eyes and realize...I've never loved like this before.

In the end, I pray that God's plans help me hang in there so that I may be able to fulfill my list...and do it all to His Glory and His Glory alone.

He knows my wants, my needs, my desires...I just have to remember that patience is His calling for me...because I will be brought forth to a time such as this...

Two Miles

Yesterday morning, after work, I headed to a friend's house so we could go running, being that Stephen was heading to Ruidoso that morning and leaving me running buddy-less.

I must say, it was a decision made at the spur of the moment and it ended up being a milestone never reached before...

I ran about three-fourths of a mile, this includes sprinting and slow jogging.

I also did lunges, ran backwards to work out my calves and then ran sideways which works inner thighs...

The rest I walked, trying to catch my breath and keep my sides from splitting open...know what I mean?

It all added up to two miles. I've never done two miles of anything...

It made me realize that I still have a lot in me to dig into...I still have more determination and dedication and discipline that what I am using at the moment or even of what I'm aware of having.

I am sore, hurting from the sole of my feet to my shoulders...but I still went running this morning after work and want to do it again tomorrow morning...the factor working against me would be having to wake up early to do it...I guess we'll have to see.

Intriguing to find out that there's so much about yourself that even you don't know.

As I slowly shed the weight, it seems that I am also slowly discovering who I really am...or perhaps I'll still be the same person I've always been...just healthier and better looking.

Ha! With time, I suppose.

Let's see...

I'm at 236 LBS.

Started running with my best friend/big brother/pastor (gonna start calling him Jack instead of Stephen) last week...we actually did four mornings in a row and have mutually decided to keep it four mornings...Tuesday through Friday.

I will be starting INSANITY month one over again, but this time, I'll be doing it with my friend Maili 'cause I found out that I push harder when I work out with someone else.

This time around, there will be before and after pictures because I WANT MY SHIRT!

I've gotten about four pairs of new shoes in the past three days...thanks parents!

I am back to a normal working schedule, which involves working four days, one half shift and three full shifts. Exhausting, but the overtime will be worth it.

I will soon be getting a new bed, smaller which means more space to move in here in this tiny room of mine.

My car's starting to act up again but I will coddle it until I can afford to get it fixed...which I will do.

Oh, yes, I went out on my first date last weekend...dinner at Fuddruckers and about four hours of wonderful conversation that involved laughing and learning about each other...I like this guy very much.

His name's Chris.

243-239

Lost four pounds in five days doing INSANITY.

It's not official though. This Monday, I'll put in the official weight loss of a week doing INSANITY.

It's taken me five days to finally make up my mind...I love INSANITY.

It's amazing, it's hard, and it makes me sweat. I love it.

Point to remember: Must buy a heart monitor.

Month's Almost Over

So here's my monthly post along with a picture updates.

I have lost a total of fifty pounds since 2007 and have a new goal of losing another fifty by my birthday in March 2012.

That's in eight months, starting August first, which means losing six to seven pounds a month. I believe that can happen.

I have bought and received the INSANITY program, so that's my new project for the month of August and September...I plan on following everything, from their exercises to their meal plan...looks good. All it takes is a little planning and organization and we shall see what I look like by end of September.

This is a hard project coming up and I will try to update often but I can't make promises, what with possible changes at work that I am so looking forward to and other such things.

Thanks to all of you who keep tabs on this blog.

Adios and hasta luego!

Scale is not my friend...but I don't care!

I try not to weigh myself so much or even to hang my hopes on what the scale shows...especially when it shows I haven't lost any weight since I started going to the gym almost three weeks ago...

But it doesn't bring me down!

Not when I can run five minutes straight and am able to catch my breath and lower my heart rate in less than five minutes. Before, whenever I tried running, I would jog for one minute and it would take an hour to catch my breath and another two for my chest to stop hurting...yes, I used to get exercise induced asthma attacks.

Not when I can do a combination of six hundred abdominal crunches in one day when before I could barely do five in a row.

Not when my size eighteen jeans are starting to fit a little loser when before, I had to lie down on the bed just to zip 'em up.

Not when I am literally swimming in my scrubs when before they used to be so tight I was afraid to bend down and rip a seam.

Not when I am full of energy when before all I wanted to do was sleep and even when I slept twelve hours in a row, I was still exhausted.

Not when I crave healthy food when before all I seemed to shove into my mouth was junk food.

Basically, the scale may not be my friend but it's also not my motivator...no, for that I have my mirror...

I am seeing the changes and I am loving it!

PS> I will be posting a picture of myself from back when I was weighing 290LBS on July 1st...it's embarrassing but a necessary thing so the difference can be seen when I post a new picture after July 15th...

Should I be Hurting this Bad?

I've been to the gym eleven days out of fourteen this past two weeks...

And I hurt!!!

Well, doing great, work okay, home okay, finances in ruin (no surprise there) and my own health is good.

Muscles screaming bloody murder and wishing I had the money for a good one hour deep tissue massage...oh, that would feel oh so good!

Will try to update more often.

New Project: GYM

I got a gym membership today and spent three and a half hours at the gym...meant to just work out for two hours but once I hit the zone, I couldn't stop, thus the extra hour and a half.

Okay, summary of the last two months right?

Let's see...finished Billy Blank weighing 253LBS

Lilian Michaels and I did not work out but I discovered Zumba.

At the end of two months of Zumba, I finished weighing 247LBS

I've started my gym project after a week of neutral (basically, lazy inaction) weighing 247 LBS.

Aside from planning on dedicating two hours every day of the week except Sunday, I am giving up bread for the month of June.

Goal for weigh in on June 30th is 237 LBS...and a red halter top dress for a wedding in July...

Target for this month is fly away arms and abs...not to mention butt, thighs and hips...lots of work to do!

Will try to update more often if possible.

New Month

Which means starting over again...I do this every month...although my new start date is not until May tenth...

Last I weighed myself, I was at 249 LBS.

I abandoned Jillian Michaels and have done Zumba, three to four times a week, as well as started Kickboxing last Saturday....

Right now, I am sore like crazy! I did Zumba for two hours yesterday and one hour today...tomorrow is going to be a doozy!

Well, gotta head to work, I have a half shift to do.

Will try to update more often this month.

Adios!

Good Friday

It's shocking when something so sudden and tragic happens. Especially when it's unexpected...and you're unprepared.

I went to the Tenebre service at Zion with the Heimers, then had dinner and came home to a message from my fellow work UC, asking me to call her, so I did.

My friend and co-worker, a CNA with three kids, the youngest eleven years old, was found on the floor of her house by her daughter after getting home from working last night...they rushed her to the hospital. She had a stroke and passed away.

Last time I saw her was Wednesday night -Thursday morning...she was so excited 'cause she had gotten tickets to see her favorite singer. She was telling us about how she had bought new clothes for the concert and how she was looking forward to going with her boyfriend, who was willing to look the other way while she acted like a total groupie fan.

Why do things like this happen? It makes no sense at all.

And I realize that it doesn't make sense because they aren't supposed to happen. We aren't supposed to die, we aren't supposed to hurt, to cry, to feel alone, to feel abandoned. I can't help but think how her children must be feeling right now...she was just forty years old.

God gave His Son for days like these, for moments like these. To show us love when we're hurting, to carry our loneliness upon His own shoulders, to cry along side us...

The coming of Easter Sunday...a reminder that not only does my Savior live, but so does my friend. She's with her Love and Savior...

While the rest of us are left hurting...but with the comfort of life after death with Christ Jesus and His Father God.

Investing In The Things That Matter

One hour of Zumba today...

I've decided to combine Michaels and Zumba...

Friday, Saturday and Monday will be Zumba days. Sunday, Tuesday and Wednesday will be Michaels days.

That leaves Thursdays as my Rest Days...I like my new schedule.

Investing my time on exercise will better my health and overall appearance...it is worth it.

Today, I bought myself a Reading Comprehension workbook...I have six weeks left for studying Reading Comprehension...it will be worth it when I get a HIGH score on my LSAT...which is approaching fast!

I also need to practice my writing...that was, after all, the reason I bought myself a LSAT Writing Workbook last month...

Well, tomorrow morning is weigh in and I have Zumba at 8:30 AM...joy!

Today, I hope to see my Heimer kiddos...I got them Easter gifts. And I'm starting the blanket for Kiah, Dawn and Carl's kiddo up in Virginia...finally bought the yarn.

And I need to get moving on Taylun's blanket, Ashley's little girl who's coming in July this year...up in Wyoming...wow. My blankets are sure starting to make their tours.

Will post pictures of them when I'm done...

Adios and Hasta Luego!!!

Rest Day

Today was a rest day...and I got placed available AGAIN...technically, I only worked one twelve hour shift this week...ridiculous.

Yesterday was Zumba day...one whole hour of Zumba and I am feeling it today.

Tomorrow, back to Michaels...and clean house, buy groceries, study and work on stories.

Anything else?

What A -

Jillian Michaels is kicking my behind...and has me doing it too!

Another twenty minutes...I still have to stop and catch my breath...I would of thought Billy Blanks would have prepped me but no, I was struggling.

Perhaps I would have struggled even more if Billy Blanks hadn't gotten to me for a month...well, for five weeks.

I bought me some chicken and mixed veggies...so I won't starve. Yay.

Well, nothing else is new.

THE SHRED PROJECT
LEVEL ONE DAY TWO ENTRY

Sweating and struggling by the third circuit...my goal is to be able to eventually do complete butt kicks...which means literally kicking myself in the butt.

I feel sore but it's a different kind of soreness from last month...this time around, the soreness feels good and not just plain painful.

I keep my mind on my goal...May tenth. Twenty minutes every day until May tenth...

So today was day two, eight more to go for Level One

I'm doing it!

Well, Wadda Ya Know? I have a RESET Button

And I had to press it this morning.

Confession time...three days without working out...three whole days of no exercise...just being lazy and lazy and lazy some more....

Needless to say, the lack of endorphins left me feeling depressed most of Thursday, Friday and Saturday.

One, they've cut my hours immensely at work and I had to cash in about twenty-four PTO hours so I wouldn't end up with a severely small check, which I will still probably do.

Two, my parents headed off to NM for the week on Friday and I have NO FOOD in the house...no worries though...I'll be getting some tomorrow with the last twenty dollars on my account...it should last me until Wednesday, which is when I'll be able to buy groceries.

Well, being that the reset button has been punched, today was day one of my new project...

So here's the statistics so far concerning my first project:

THE PT 24/7 PROJECT

Starting Date: February 27,2011
Starting Weight: 268 LBS

Ending Date: April 9, 2011
Ending Weight: 253 LBS

TOTAL LOST: 15 LBS

Starting Size: 22
Ending Size: 20

Total Minutes of Work-Out Time: 1,265

So this morning, having reset myself, was DAY ONE of my new project which means restarting journal entries. I've decided to put away PT 24/7 and see what SHRED can do for me in thirty days...looking forward to see who wins, project one or two.

THE SHRED PROJECT
LEVEL ONE DAY ONE ENTRY:

Twenty minutes and I was breathing hard and sweating...but it felt sooo good to get back on those endorphins...just like a junkie going through withdrawal finally get a hit...

Day One, Level One started with me weighing 253 LBS and wearing size twenty...

This project ends on May 10, 2011...my weight lose goal is to beat the PT 24/7 results of fifteen pounds...

I also want to drop one size which means be able to wear my size 18 jeans again.

Here's to the first ten days of Level One!

I'm doing it!

Oh My Abs!!!

Today was the first day of combining Billy Blank with Jillian Michaels...so that means journal entries shall resume.

I am exhausted...fifty minutes of working out and the 30 Day Shred Lever 1 isn't as easy as I thought it would be...then again, I did it AFTER I did my Body Blast Billy Blank DVD.

Weigh in this Sunday morning...oh, I hope I've lost something this week...being that last week I lost 0 pounds...

So I'm still at 254LBS...

On other areas of my life -they're cutting my hours at work due to over-staffing, which means I have to dip into my PTO hours to get paid those hours I'm getting flexed out of.

I think it is time for me to start looking for another job...preferably a day job this time around that isn't shift work and that pays me more than what I get paid now...

I've yet to do Reading Comprehension studying but I plan on doing some of that tonight at work...if I work. If not, I'll do it here at home.

THE BILLY/JILLIAN PROJECT
JOURNAL ENTRY #1

I'm starting from scratch today, adding Jillian to my Billy workout.

Results of doing Billy Blank from Feb. 27th to March 27th was a total loss of fourteen pounds, having started weighing 268LBS on Feb. 27th and ending at 254LBS on March 27th.

My next goal is to lose ten pounds, which should be reached by April 27th...a month from my 27th birthday.

The Jillian Michaels' weight loss goal is differing, being that I started today...so that means that I want to lose ten pounds between today and May 6th...

So to record, today I weigh...let me go check -254LBS.

Trying not to let frustration get the best of me.

I'M DOING IT!!!