So I got the call yesterday...the Hispanic Mission Society in Valparaiso, Indiana decided to go a different way and so they did not offer me the position. Even though I am glad they didn't offer me the position since I wasn't planning on taking it anyway, I can't help but feel that I am not good enough.
On top of that, the fact that I haven't heard from any churches interested in even interviewing me while my fellow intern friends are getting interviewed (Nevada, Wisconsin, Nebraska...) and are waiting on whether they get the call or not is definitely adding on to that "not good enough" mentality.
Well, I am looking into apartments in College Station. I have to make sure to look in other places and not limit myself to just that one place. Even though living on Aggie Land would be a dream come true for me. I've been thinking of looking into a possible job position in A&M...there's a possibility.
So this is the things that are happening before the next chapter of my life unfolds. I really hate being on limbo but hey...at least I'm sleeping (somewhat) again. That's right, I said I am sleeping again. Last week, I was unable to sleep for about four days. I ended up having to use Tylenol PM but even that didn't work all that well. I realized after talking to my counselor that the idea of going back home, taking that step back into my past, was causing serious anxiety which resulted in my inability to fall asleep and stay asleep.
I promise to update y'all on what the next chapter will entail. I am definitely looking forward to that next step, no matter what it is. Keep me in your prayers that I follow the road chosen by God and not myself.
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Luz--press on and move forward, not back home--I'm so sorry our call was cut short. You know who would be great counsel to you, someone who also has had to not return home and keeps a safe distance from home...and who also sets out with little finances??? Melissa, remember her??? I'll email you her address. again, so sorry the call was so abrupt the other day. I just now see you got that phone call like the day before--I wish I had been a better friend when we were on the phone, but little Kyle was pulling at my feet
Hun I love you had God has a plan for you I know it is hard to press on when everyone around you is getting to take a step further but your day will come.
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