Getting Lost in Another World

Believe it or not, tons has happened since last time I posted.

One, I got suspended for two days from work due to false accusations from a fellow co-worker that's trying to bring down the rest of us before she gets fired. Of course, there was no evidence to back the accusations so I got back to work on Tuesday night and was compensated for my two days of lost work. So my two days off became a four day weekend. It was good.

I now have said co-worker asking another of my co-workers if I am mad at her instead of asking me. Why is she asking this? Because, for those of you who read this that have ever been on my bad side or that I did not like, I am exceptionally good at giving the cold shoulder. Even when I talk to said person that I am mad at or don't like, you can tell that I am not happy with said person. Her hypocrasy (sp?) makes me mad and since I don't want to say anything to her that she will use against me and once again try to get me fired, I just don't talk to her or look at her or spend any willing and alone time around her. I always have someone with me when she's around now. Sucks when you can't trust the people you work with.

Let's see, what else? Oh, I have a new bill added to my list of monthly bills starting this March. Stupid school loans. My degree is costing me more money than it has made me. I wouldn't be so upset about paying my student loans if I was using said degree. Sometimes, I cry in my sleep with the ache I have inside me to be, once again, fully immersed in full-time ministry. Evidently, though, God has other plans although He hasn't shared them with me.

Anything else that's new? I broke my "since I pay the insurance, gas and maintanance on my car, no one else drives it" rule yesterday and let my dad and mom take my racecar to go downtown for the MRI appointment my dad had.

Wow, sad to say, I was lying. Not much has happened since last I posted.

I have been reading (alot) due to lack of life. So instead I am losing myself into the lives of other people's fictional characters. I do have three different story ideas going on in my head (atop of the ten other story ideas) and I think at some point, I just may sit at my computer and start pounding them out. Who knows? If I publish one of them, and they become best-sellers, I won't have to work at the nursing home anymore. Instead, I can write for a living while going back to school. Sounds good to me. Now, if I could just sit down and actually finish a story (fanfiction story doesn't count because I got no profit from it and 90% of the characters belonged to another writer).

Discipline is not my middle name. Procrastination is though, but as I have well become aware of, it will get you nowhere...just keeps you in the middle of the crossroads, neither going left or right, just looking back and forth between the two roads until you get a headache from shaking your head too much. Then you sit down and wait for the headache to go away without having made a decision, therefore getting you back to where you started...the middle of nowhere.