ISAIAH 55

My life is not what I expected it to be at this point in time. At twenty-four, I expected to be in a serious relationship, dedicating myself to a career that I am passionate for and working towards continuing my education.

Instead, I am single, with no prospective relationship whatsoever, unemployed, barely making rent and definitely not making enough to pay my bills, and watching my passion for my chosen career slip farther and farther away. Oh, and the continuing education...didn't I just say I could barely make rent?

Today, I had lunch at a Chinese restaurant across the street from the mechanic where my car was getting an oil change and a thermostat replaced. While there, I started the first day of a 30 day Bible study titled "Trusting in the Names of God."

The first chapter was titled "The Great Adventure of Knowing God." It was amazing how much this first chapter with which I started parralleled to my life at this moment. And what amazed me most was the last verse the writer, Catherine Martin, quoted.

Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to me; hear me, that your soul may live....

Isaiah 55:1-3a

Those first three verses hit me hard but not as hard as when I found out that those three verses came from the same chapter as a verse that I hang on to at these uncertain times of my life.

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, as the heavens are higher than the eart, so are my ways higher that your ways and my thoughts that your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields see for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

Isaiah 55:8-11

I realized that if I must adopt any chapter from the Bible to help me through these uncertain times, Isaiah 55 would be it. It felt good to study Scripture. I haven't opened a Bible in over two months and it was amazing to have God talk right to my hurt. To have Him cut through all the crap and pretense and hit the heart of the matter that is my life.

I feel relieved that I am on speaking terms with my God again. And I thank Becca for having reminded me during our three hour talk last night that God is so much bigger than my situation...